This is actually valuable insight into why non-trans supporters tend to try to push me to come out more publicly. Whereas I see everyone else as potential enemies, they see everyone as potential additional protection.
love your writing as always! 🥰 (there was a joke here about "practical applications", but I couldn't figure out how to make it cute instead of creepy so I dropped it 😅)
I thought "fruitful" may have been used to point to assumptions about cis/trans women and fertility - but then the footnote on "practical applications" convinced me otherwise 😆
This very phenomenon has resulted in my most toxic trait: an intense desire to vanish for 2-3 years from everybody who has ever known me, focus solely on my transition like a secluded monk until safely passing, and return, claiming to have been cursed by Artemis after stumbling upon her bathing in the woods or something.
I imagine that such a thing would probably cause some damage to the psyche, however.
Yes, very true. But much as you point out, I doubt I could present it as much without incurring social wrath.
Surely there must be some form of memetic force-fem where I get to retain all the agency and integrity of self, but those around me are anomalously gaslit into believing it was not my choice.
Though this does violates their own bodily integrity. Back to the workshop I suppose.
More of a research lab, perhaps, where we also discuss various methods for developing the paranatural equivalent of a mass psyop to obliterate transphobia. All while ignoring the repeated calls from an increasingly worried ethics board.
This is actually valuable insight into why non-trans supporters tend to try to push me to come out more publicly. Whereas I see everyone else as potential enemies, they see everyone as potential additional protection.
Sometimes I wonder if I'm halimede, and have just forgotten I wrote all this down. Love you, Hali.
Rest assured: I will never forget. so you aren’t.
love your writing as always! 🥰 (there was a joke here about "practical applications", but I couldn't figure out how to make it cute instead of creepy so I dropped it 😅)
I thought "fruitful" may have been used to point to assumptions about cis/trans women and fertility - but then the footnote on "practical applications" convinced me otherwise 😆
This very phenomenon has resulted in my most toxic trait: an intense desire to vanish for 2-3 years from everybody who has ever known me, focus solely on my transition like a secluded monk until safely passing, and return, claiming to have been cursed by Artemis after stumbling upon her bathing in the woods or something.
I imagine that such a thing would probably cause some damage to the psyche, however.
It would not be a curse. For you it would be a blessing.
Yes, very true. But much as you point out, I doubt I could present it as much without incurring social wrath.
Surely there must be some form of memetic force-fem where I get to retain all the agency and integrity of self, but those around me are anomalously gaslit into believing it was not my choice.
Though this does violates their own bodily integrity. Back to the workshop I suppose.
With a bunch of your sisters who help you transition and learn?
Some sort of hall with a basement?
More of a research lab, perhaps, where we also discuss various methods for developing the paranatural equivalent of a mass psyop to obliterate transphobia. All while ignoring the repeated calls from an increasingly worried ethics board.